Dear God.

Dear God,I think you’ve got this love thing all wrong

I read somewhere that the greatest love is to die for your brother

And that we should love our neighbors

And our enemies

But I think you must have omitted something from your great commission

How I am supposed to love my neighbor when they plot against me?

And my enemies constantly threaten kill or killed be

Yet you tell me that I am to love them.

And then you said that you yourself were love

And that I just don’t understand

It’s not that it’s too vague or anything

It just can’t be real

Because where were you in all the times I found love and needed love?

I didn’t see you last night when my girlfriend and I were making it

And I didn’t see you 6 years ago with that picture on the screen

That would take everything that I have ever achieved

And break it down right in front of me

So that for 6, sick years I thought I knew what pleasure was.

Where were you then God?

And Where were you when my mother died?

And the breath in her chest was finally at rest

That was when I did my best to search for you

From the top of my head to the sole of my shoe

I searched the walls of my closest and you still weren’t there

And so I sat alone in the dark until something came that cared

Now the infectious disease has taken over my body

The body you have made and I still can’t even feel you

So I think you were wrong about this whole love thing

Because if you really loved me you’d be here

By my side taking care of me

And all of the hurts that I hold inside

Dear God, I think you’re a liar

Amen